A few weeks ago I was in the middle of this craziness:
ects/mamatronic/aidez”>Ravelry and Kollabora)
It’s the body of Aidez, knit in one piece. I literally printed these cable charts out on separate pages, taped them together, then added individual cable stitch pattern instructions in the available spaces on the edges. That way all of my stuff would be on one giant piece of paper that I carted around with me until the sweater became too massive to travel. I’m not tech savvy, so it was a literal cut and paste session for me. Look at it. Does this not make you want to pull your hair and run off of a cliff?
Can you tell I’ve been going through a crazy time? No, it has nothing to do with my cycle. Well, actually it does. I’ve been experimenting with my doctor and compound pharmacist on a hormonal/ thyroid treatment plan that will help me with all of the crummy symptoms I’ve been dealing with for a while. A while means the last decade.
But I hadn’t been on my current medications long enough to feel an energy boost when my grandmother went into the hospital and I was needed, by she and my grandfather, in a more intense way than normal. To the usual exhaustion and migraines was added sleep deprivation, worrying for my grandmother, and losing my voice trying to explain things to my grandfather all day, every day. It was an awful week after a rough month. That’s why I have yet to answer comments or emails. For the first time since I married, I didn’t even send Christmas cards, and I don’t feel bad about it.
I am cutting myself some major slack because this is a really difficult time (one my mother would have been better suited to handle) and, with my health issues, I’m just doing good to take care of the things that really matter. If I can be there for the people who need me, I’m fine with letting everything else pile up.
Oh and it has piled up: email, laundry, Christmas shopping, FOs that need blocking, and housework. I’ve even skipped some church services to sleep and am ordering gumbo for Christmas dinner.
So if I seem non-responsive on Ravelry or other forms of social media, just know that I’ll get to it as soon as I can. I enjoy the rapport of blog comments, but I like to consider and think before I respond. I realize that my responses are usually brilliant remarks like, “Thanks so much!” but still… I mean it when I write it. So I will get to it.
If I don’t get back on here before Christmas, I hope every one of you have a beautiful Christmas with your family.